been a while since i did one of these.

1. Name of a person who made you laugh last night?
Puteri Nur Irdina

2. What were you doing at 0800?
In the car, on the way to the Komuter station

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Typing a letter.

4. What happened to you in 2006?
Faidhi Ilham was born. Well that didn't happen to me personally hehe.

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
"OW!" hehe. the balls of my feet are kind of hurting at the moment.

6. How many beverages did you have today?
2; iced nescafe and mineral water.

7. What colour is your hairbrush?
Brown, and I rarely use it.

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
Breakfast; a half serving of nasi lemak with nescafe and a piece of bread.

9. Where were you last night?
At home, watching X-Men 2.

10. What colour is your front door?
Dark brown.

11. Where do you keep your change?
In my wallet.

12. What's the weather like today?
So far, it's been nice and sunny. I like.

13. What's the best ice-cream flavour?
I'm still deciding.

14. What excites you?
Shoes, bags, felines, making desserts.

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
Yes, just a trim. I'm getting split ends, again.

16. Are you over the age of 25?
Very much so.

17. Do you talk a lot?
YES. And pretty loudly, too.

18. Do you watch the O.C?
Nope. Teenage love triangle doesn't give me any high.

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Yes. In fact, I know 2 Stevens!

20. Do you make up your own words?
BENGOT!

21. Are you a jealous person?
I'm not sure. But I can be.

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'
Azzura

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'.
Kusa baby!

24. Who's the first person on your received call list?
My Sayang.

25. What does the last text message you received say?
There's a message from my brother, but I rather not reveal the content.

26. Do you chew on your straw?
A very bad habit, but I do!

27. Do you have curly hair?
Wavy~

28. Where's the next place you're going to?
My Sayang's store.

29. Who's the rudest person in your life?
Uhm. Haziq and Andhar and Dina, I guess. They're kids. I usually avoid grown-ups with attitude problems.

30. What was the last thing you ate?
A slice of toasted bread.

31. Will you get married in the future?
End of June / early July, 2008.

32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks?
American Gangster, though my Sayang went ahead and watch it first without me.

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
I like many people~

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
Last night.

35. Are you currently depressed?
haha far from it.

36. Did you cry today?
Nay.

37. Why did you answer and post this?
Because I like nothing better but to waste my time and do silly questionnaires. And because Zura tagged me.

38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
Not 5 people, just YOU.

blogging for the sake of blogging

This is sad, but working on weekdays has turned me into a lazy bum when it comes to updating my blog. And sad to say, has also left me in the dark about latest happenings. I'm used to be the sort of person who reads the newspaper every morning, every day, but since I started on my internship, I'd be lucky if I get to read the papers twice a week. Life has become a routine of some sort; get up, get ready, go to work, come home, eat dinner, fall asleep. And once in a while, I get to go to my Sayang's store and lepak with him a while. On weekends, I either sleep to sort of avenge the sleep that I lack during weekdays, or lepak with my Baby some more, either at BTR or KJ.

I guess you can say that I have no social life. It's nothing to be ashamed of, but then again, I'm not exactly psyched about it either. But it's not bad. I have little friends, but at least the ones I have are the ones I know I can count on. I have a family that despite the bickering and the noise they make when I screw up, love me as much as I do them. I have a man that clearly adores me [well he better!]. Some things could be better, but I love where I am right now. The people, the situation, the life. Even the country!

Anyways. One of the major perks about working is that I argue with my dad a lot less nowadays. And I get to write. I'll be doing a lot of other things in due time, of course, but writing has been a great form of release for me [other than crying haha] even when I'm writing about other stuff unrelated to me.

So yeah. Work is good.

I am also currently addicted to Cake Mania on my Babe's DS... until one day the card decided to go dead on me. While playing. It sucked so bad. It still does! Tried downloaded the game on PC, but it was faulty, and I just gave up on playing. For now at least. sigh~

I am missing Azzura and Animz pretty badly. The thought that they're coming home in less than a month makes me miss them so much more, and I hope I'll be able to pick Azzura up at the airport. Animz, if you want us to pick you up let us know k?

I miss Ikin too. She's here, but I have only met her twice. I guess Melaka and Serdang / KL isn't that near after all. haih.

I have a craving for ice cream. and teh ais. No wonder I keep on gaining pounds.

a mugful of orange juice coupled with a talking mouse makes for a very annoying headache

It's almost 8.40 p.m., and I am still at the office. Luckily I enjoy my internship [which, insya Allah, will turn into permanent employment]. But then again, who the heck enjoys going back home at 9 p.m. after being at work for 11 long hours?

March 2003 - December 2007

After 4 years and 8 months, and 3 different locations of college later, I have graduated.

HOORAY!

I know yesterday's ceremony was just a formality; I wouldn't see my certificate for many months, not until I finished settling all the payments and complete my internship and pay the certificate processing fee. But it is still an accomplishment nonetheless. And it's incredible to think, that just for one sheet of paper, there are so many people behind it that makes it possible.

Without going through a lengthy list and the possibility of tearing up, I thank all of them with the deepest gratitude from the deepest of my heart.

My only complain? I didn't have a camera to take many pictures, depending only on my Sayang's new phone to take the essential pictures of me, my dad, and himself. And Lyana took a few of us, so I'm looking forward to that.

But it's okay, I suppose. Congratulations, Me!

history!

Click here. Look at the picture. I know it's small, but I think you should still be able to see quite clearly each of the men and women that was featured in this old photograph. Now, focus your attention to the man standing on the far right side of the second row. See him?

That's my dad, y'all.

But no, my father was not a teacher at MCKK. He was actually an administrative staff... A clerk, if I am not mistaken. But still, that's my dad! And dang it, although it's probably just by chance that my dad was standing among teachers in an article obviously about those in the teaching profession, his face and name was featured in yesterday's New Straits Times!

It's probably silly to be proud over something like this, but I am. :)

spending my lunch hour blogging away

Hello all~

In case you people wonder, work has been great. But as much as I enjoy doing my job, I really don't feel like typing details of what I've been doing, and what I'll be up to. Not now anyways hehe.

I observed something interesting about Malaysians yesterday on my way to work. I had the notion that Putra LRT users are much more civilized than KTM Komuter's when it comes to getting on the train in a proper and orderly manner even during rush hours, due to the fact that there's always a few pakciks making sure that everyone stands in line. Komuter, on the other hand, gets passengers that would push people around and probably go, "Line up? What's that?" should any poor soul ask about queuing. Well, that may sound a little prejudicial, but I'm merely saying things based on what I've seen, and I have nothing against any Komuter or LRT users. And I guess, we learn by watching others behave, so if there's no one to make sure we stand in line, then we won't.

So anyways, I was at the LRT station in KL Sentral thinking, "This is cool. There's a lot of people, but no one's pushing." Trains were so full, that three passed me by before I could get to be among the first in line, and wait for my turn. Then immediately after the third, an empty train came, I assume to specifically pick people up from KL Sentral. And literally, all hell broke lose and lines were no longer visible! The train didn't even completely stop yet! Seriously. It's like, the sight of an empty train brought these people closer to the edge of the terminal like moths to flames!

And so I came to a conclusion: Malaysians are Malaysians. No matter from which part of the country you are, common courtesy only works if you get something in return, or there's no one to stop you from being assholes.

And maybe, that includes me.

cinematic razor sharp

I am now at my Sayang's shop, wasting my time, and his electricity. haha. The shop is closing in about 20 minutes, then they'll do their closing, and after that we're off to have supper. My poor Baby is tired of eating sandwich everyday. It's free (well sorta) and although people - especially me - have said that they wouldn't mind eating something everyday without having to pay, but after a month one gets bored. Believe me, you'll get bored.

This week has been good to me, with two great news. (1) Insya Allah I'll be graduating next month after four years of studying. I'm not entitled for any class honours, as I've said in a previous post, because I am in the final semester and they are not able to calculate the final semester's grade into the CGPA as my final exam will only end a few days before the ceremony. So basically, I'm in it solely for the formality. I can choose not to participate, but come on, how often would I be getting this chance? But of course, it all depends if I can come up with the money by the 20th. Wish me luck.


And (2), I'll be starting my internship next week. Remember a few post ago, where I mentioned something about an interview the next day? Well scrap that. That interview sucked. You can't blame the interviewer [who's also the managing Director of the company] for wanting someone who knows a lot about PR and the business, because it is a tough TOUGH business to go into. But then again, a part of me felt sad for not being given the opportunity. I was applying for an internship, obviously because I want to learn. There's a few other things also that I find a bit sucky about the whole thing, but oh well, bygones. So a friend from another company YM-ed me, and asked me if I'dbe interested to work in her workplace. Went for an interview, and a few days later they called and I got the job.

It's a small company, and I'm not sure what exactly I'll be learning as they expect me to do a few things and not just one. And that's an advantage; I'd be able to learn not just one thing and thus I'd be able to choose what I want to do later as a career. So yeah, it's cool :)

I'm off. Gotta talk crap with my girlfriend for a while before we head home.

And if you're as blur as a stone, my girlfriend is Ikin.

seriously?!

Maybe he was tired of all the bad drivers he encountered and all the excuses that he heard. Maybe my Sayang was a victim of situation; wrong place at the wrong time. But I am a firm believer that there is NO EXCUSE for rudeness, especially from someone who we all generally look up to as the people who upholds the law. And to imply that another person is being impolite when that person says nothing but "Sorry" every few seconds, is just plain wrong.

Clicky for what I mean, and what went on.

vent.

I am honestly tired of how some of my Malay friends say that they suck at speaking Malay and so they won't, or how it sucks that they speak too much Malay now, or similar things like that. And they thought that I would understand because I speak a lot of English in college, or because my blog is in English, or some other weird reason like that. But seriously, is it so bad to be talking in Malay? I'm all for improving your English, coz hey, it is the international language. And truth be told, that's why my blog is in English... because I need to brush up on it. My English is slightly rusty and I want it to shine like diamonds on platinum, dang it. But I am proud as heck to be able to speak Malay, to know the language, to understand it. And so I'm sorry if I don't share your sentiments. Well actually, I'm not sorry after all.

And here's a resolution: I don't want to care about people who doesn't care about how I feel, or how the people close to me feel. I shouldn't, so I won't anymore. So you wanna do your own thing without caring for what others might feel about it? Go ahead. I hope you're happy.

happy me!

Seriously, the ability to video chat with Azzura and Ikin is such a liberation.

Thank you, Internet.

21st October. Sorry guys :(

I know that I failed to let a lot of people know of my engagement with my Sayang - which was held yesterday evening - and for that I am truly sorry. It was very last minute, thus my failure to notify everyone. I'll update about the event later when I have enough sleep [I am sleepy as feck right now], and when I have pictures from... uhm, the people who took pictures. They're not really my photographers, just guests who was kind enough to make me feel like I'm some sort of a celebrity. haha.

And wish me luck... I have an interview for my internship tomorrow. :)

Raya yeay!

It's the last day of puasa, and I think I'm getting sick. So is my dad. He blames it on all the kari and masak lemak dishes, and that ritualistic kuih pelita and creme caramel we had for berbuka for the past, well, one month. I blame it on my dad who insisted on buying all those kari and masak lemak dishes and that ritualistic kuih pelita and creme caramel. haha.


Raya plans are still a little hazy, as per usual. We'd make plans about going back to visit relatives in Ipoh, and then we'd cancel, and then suddenly early on the first day I'd usually be woken up by my dad or sister screaming, "oi bangun la! nak balik kampung ni!" So now I resort to not really paying attention whenever my dad make or not make any plans, and just go with the flow.
On another note, still no news about all the internship application I sent out. sigh.

Well then. Here comes the usual raya greetings:
Salam Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin to all who feel offended by my words, and/or actions, also for the lack of words and/or actions. I hope this Eid will be a great time for all of you, as I hope it'll be for mine. Much love!

days and weeks to go.

This sucks. Just when I want to share some news with my girls, none of them are online!

Ramadhan has been treating me well this year. Maybe it's because I've been treating it well too haha. There's a few temptations here and there, but none that I can't handle. chewah.

Talking about Ramadhan, I had the freaks' annual buka puasa gathering last Friday. There were only me, Kusa, Ili, Along, Adik, Noran and her new beau, Hozair. We ate at Nando's in Midvalley, and it was a mistake. The service was crap, the food was late, and it took 45 minutes at least for Ili's bottled water to arrive! No one was a happy camper.

And to think that we had a similar fate during last year's berbuka too.

I've been thinking a lot about my late Mama lately. Things reminds me of her so much lately, I can't be sure why. But as much as I miss her, a conversation I had with my sister makes me sad. I was watching the telly with Kak Hani, and we were kidding around like we always do, and at one point somehow I joked with her about removing a mole on her face, to which she replied: "No way... this is my lucky mole. Mama had one too on her cheek."

Then it hit me. I don't remember which cheek.

Honestly, if it wasn't for my sister being there, I would have cried. I had to check my mom's photograph in my wallet closely to find out where [it was on her left]. These things happen, I guess... and I know that no matter what, Mama will always be a part of me. But at that moment, I wanted nothing else but to lock myself in my room and wail like a baby.

Sigh. Moving on.

In about a week, the first Malaysian Angkasawan Negara will blast off to space. There were news about how NASA in its website referred to Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar as a Space Flight Participant [or something along that line], instead of an astronaut. I can't be bothered with all the title thing, to be honest. Looking at the bigger picture, I'm just proud that one of us is going to space. yeay~

oooh. Azzura and Ikin are online! Ili too. Yeay!

hunger.

I exist, after all. For now I have a facebook profile. yeay me!

It's the 7th day of Ramadhan... so far, all is okay. My dad has resorted to buying lauk and kuih at the local bazaar Ramadhan instead of cooking; this way he saves time. I have yet to lose any weight... blame it on all the sweet things I eat during berbuka, although I try to keep my rice intake low. But the kuih... ooo yum. Where the heck is my will power?

This cybercafe is too damn noisy. Will give a proper update once I get to a place where I can actually hear myself think.

Selamat Berpuasa!

Tetanus D

It was early Friday morning. She stepped out of her living room, and went outside to hang some laundry. It was humid. Hot. Sweat trickled down her back. She squinted her eyes, wishing that the day was a little cooling. Mindlessly she took one piece of t-shirt after another, and then she was done. She sighed, relieved that her chore is almost done. She bend to pick up the empty basket, when she suddenly felt a slight pain on her right foot. Her mind immediately thought of the worse, and as she examined her bleeding foot, and then her slippers, her fear was confirmed.

"Stupid fucking rusty nail poked into my kaki! aaaagh!"

How the damn nail got there, I don't know. The pain wasn't bad... It's not like the whole thing went into my foot. Just a tiny pinch. But it sucked big time when because of a tiny little thing like that, I had to go get a tetanus shot.

Damn. My left arm still hurts till now :(

The doctor was nice though. He's been there at my neighborhood forever, but that was the first time I ever went there. The usual clinic I go to was closed... The usual clinic being Malay-owned and the day being Friday. Well, it was 12.30 pm when I finally went to get my shot.

He told me that the shot would last me for two years. So now, for the next 24 months, I can get bitten and scratched by animals, and get cut by more nails and broken glasses, and not worry about getting an infection. heh. Bring it on.

... Well. Not really. :D

oohh. My babe gave me the sweetest surprise when I got here to his house today. Well the thing wasn't even for me, but how would you feel when your boyfriend of 6 years, who is known for NOT being romantic, decided to one day create a picture collage of the two of you together, and put it up as his wallpaper on his PC? Well I know that it's similar to the birthday present he made for me earlier this year, but the magic is not lost. I'm not sure when he did it, but damn it's a nice feeling. To know that someone loves you so much, that they don't mind looking at the same old face everyday.

My poor, sick but lovely Baby who is down with fever, flue and cough didn't even tell me!

And there's also a picture of me and Ikin tersesat there somehow haha.

hiatus mode: off

YESYESYES an update is due!

Why have I been silent for all this while? Everything, and nothing. haha. The major reason for my absence in the blogging scene is the simple, plain reason that I do not have any Internet connection at home, and I no longer come over to My Sayang's house as often as I did before.

So what have I been up to? Well, the highlight would be, of course, Ikin and Bad's nikah and wedding receptions. Here's a taste of what kind of loveliness I was surrounded with on one of the days:


This is taken on the day of the nikah, or solemnization ceremony. And this one is Ikin being oh-so-modelesque on the day of her reception in Melaka:



Thanks Arnie for the pictures. By the way, you still haven't given me the ones from the hotel reception.

[By the way, notice Ikin's luscious new locks? :P]

Another thing that has been taking my time is the preparing of my resume and cover letter for my internship. I've yet to send out any as I still need my testimonials and sorts from my lecturers, but insya Allah I'll start sending by middle of the month. I'm looking for a spot in a PR/advertising agency... so if you can help me out, holler at me! :)

There's also this other little thing that has yet to take up any of my time yet, but it sure will. Will let you guys know as soon as something is confirmed.

I'm missing a whole load of people right now; mainly Azzura and Ikin. It's damn obvious why I miss Ikin; she is after all my girlfriend. And her living in Tokyo... well. That's just like the bad, evil, negative version of icing on the cake. haha.

Azzura. I miss our mindless chatter on YM. The fact that I hardly get online now, and the fact that she doesn't get online as often as well until Friday is the only reason why I haven't spoken to her as I would normally would since like a week before Ikin's wedding. Emails are just not the same when you have to wait days for a reply, don't you think?

And I miss Lyana. Ohmygod I so wanna hang out with her! It's been a little bit close to impossible to see her now that she's working. And I've been canceling on her too... thousands of apologies, babe. But weekends are your days off, and I know you want to hang with Michael too, so we just have to be patient and wait till our time comes, okay?

So. Is this post good enough after a month plus of silence?

And also, I had a haircut yesterday! whee~

w00t.

Had my last two papers of finals two days ago. And how did I celebrate?

Entourage marathon.

Just finished episode 14 of the third season, and now waiting for my Sayang to get off work so we could watch the rest of the season [and season 4!] together.

My Baby is now doing his refresher training at the newly-opened Subway outlet in Selangor Dredging for the next two weeks. And this is sorta like a peek preview of things to come for me; I should start getting used to the fact that I won't be seeing him as much as I do now when the shop in Kelana Jaya opens. It sucks, but we've made it through worse times.

Anyone knows how much it costs to take the TOEFL exam nowadays?

another college post. have i nothing else to talk about?

This week marks the last week of full time college-hood. Yes I have my final exams next week, but only for 2 days. And then there's my final semester starting from mid-August, but for 3 1/2 months my classes will only be on Monday. The end of the year is still quite a distance to go, and already I'm anticipating. For what, I've yet to discover.

I know that I complain about having to do assignments towards the end of every semester, and of presentations and exams and other college-related shit. And true, I just can't wait for all this to be over.

And by golly, I will miss it.

It's hectic as heck, but at least I still have time for things that I like to do, like catching a midnight movie on Thursday, or window shopping at 2 p.m. in the afternoon. By my own experience of 2-odd years working at The Body Shop and UPM's Graduate School, I know such carefree time will soon come to its end.

And I believe this is why it's important to have a job that you love; to minimize the days that you drag yourself to work.

But anyways. I guess it's one of those cases where you gotta give up something to gain something else. My free time for a secure financial status, self-actualization, and interestingly, freedom.

I think it's a fair deal.

as luck would have it

So I found out today that 3rd class honors for my Communications degree is possible after all. My CGPA right now is 3.18, and I need 3.30 to be eligible. All I need is a couple of As, a couple of Bs, and no C.

That's great news for someone who initially thought that there's no time to catch up.

And then immediately afterwards, I realized that I'll be completely done with college by the end of the year [not including the submission of my internship report due by March/April next year], but the graduation ceremony is usually held a few weeks before the final exam of the Fall semester, thus rendering me ineligible for any honorary roll call during the ceremony this year.

My options? Go ahead and graduate without any honors this December, or wait till next year's ceremony [which is a year and 5 months away!].

Suck.

big old baby

My Baby is 28! yeay! Happy happy belated birthday wahai si Bengot!

He wasn't in an especially celebratory mood yesterday. The year so far, agreeably, has not been especially good to him and to us [no, we as a couple are not having any problems]. It was understandable that he did not want to celebrate, but it was his birthday and I really wanted to do something for him.

So I made him meat pie. Made possible, of course, with his help and Alia. It came out a lot better than I expected as there were a little bit of a mishap with the dough. But all went well. Ikin even came with a surprise birthday cake for my Sayang. We were full to the very limit, but hey, there is always room for dessert! Najeeb came all the way from Shah Alam too, and I guess that definitely brightened up my Bengot's spirit for the night.

And yet again, I only remembered to take pictures of my pie only after everyone was done eating. Oh well. It's really yummy, that's all that matter :P

Last night, me and my Sayang agree, was fun. Good food, good company, great time. What more could anyone want?

future.

It's a nice feeling to know that prior to telling the class your age, they thought that you're at least 3 years younger, and one guy even went as far as saying that you look 18.

It's a nice feeling when they judge that solely on how you look alone, but I don't think you'll have the same fuzzy feeling inside if they said that based on how you've been behaving in class. [Which I hope is not the case coz obviously it's me I'm talking about.]

The end of the semester is nearing, and I'm getting an anxiety attack. Yes I am exaggerating, but the mere thought of doing my internship in [insya-Allah] August/September is exciting, but scary as heck. It'll be the phase in my life that I would call Long-Overdue; I should be at this stage in life at least 2 years ago. And that's what makes it so exciting, but the same reason is making me nervous. With no real previous employment and a few years of my life wasted on being young and stupid, the prospect of me doing PR is thin.

There's also the fact that I am rekindling my little hobby for writing, and though I still think my stronger point is talking endlessly rather than writing extensively, it does put pressure in one's mind to choose one passion over the other.

AND don't get me started on my dream of owning a make-up artist consultancy business!

Really, I don't feel like doing one thing and a few weeks, or even months into it, hitting myself so hard and say, "Lord why did I ever do this for?!"

But according to William Whewell, "Every failure is a step to success".

So I guess, here's to many many failures to come, and may I reap what I sow as soon as possible.

near my breaking point, but not quite there.

Seriously, I have zero tolerance against stupid, ignorant people who refuse to use their brain. I'm not talking about silly kind of stupid, which I actually find endearing [Ikin knows what I'm talking about coz I say bodoh to her everytime she makes those remarks she is known for], but real, pure, I-can't-believe-he/she-just-did/say-that kind of stupid. Other people may just shut up and take it in, but not me. Not if I can help it.

I don't mean the above statement as a hate statement to people that I dislike, not necessarily. Even those you love can be really dumb sometimes.

Moving on.

I SWEAR college is trying to kill me. People are complaining that they don't get to see me either face to face or online for the past 2 weeks. Really... I'm not avoiding anyone. I have classes every weekday, either half-day or full, and by the time I get back, I'm too beat to even think of going out, and sometimes to even call anyone. Well, there's also the factor of my mobile number being barred as I have yet to reload my credit. Sorry sorry sorry.


I have my mid-term exam starting tomorrow. First paper will be Consumer Behavior, followed by Human Motivation on Saturday. I know. I can't even imagine going to college on a weekend, let alone have an exam!

oooo but first, Transformers on Friday. oh yeah.

Adieu, for now.

a different kind of anniversary

2 years today.

Al-Fatihah.

That night plays in my head every once in a while, but a lot less compared to a year ago. I still get emotional thinking about the daughter I have been versus the daughter I should have been, but it is easier to tell myself that there's no point of having regrets now.

I worry sometimes that I would forget things about her as I get older, but somehow I know that I won't. It's still scary though, because I find myself thinking less about her lately, unlike a few months back where I would actually daze off and thoughts of her would just burst into my head.

Oh well.

I should get some sleep. been having a very irregular sleeping pattern since last week.

And if I'm lucky, maybe I'll dream about my Mama.

Till later... Ciao meow~

lips on fire

ooooo~ 2 weeks without any updates. Anyone miss me yet? Okay don't answer that.

... Well it's not like anyone was going to anyways kan?

So what is going on in my world? Class has started since 3 weeks ago, but I've only been to every single one of my classes only this week. I'm taking 3 subjects, and God willing I'll do fine. They seem to be interesting in their own way, either by the nature of the subject itself, or the nature of the lecturer teaching the subject. But seriously, going to college from Monday to Friday, 5 days a week... it drains me mentally most of the time.

Just thought I'd share with you:
Last Monday was an extremely good day for me. Nothing super happened... it was just a good day. At every time I took the public transport, whether the bus or the train from home to college or vice versa, it did not take me more than 2 minutes to wait for my ride. And everything else that happened during the day seemed to be very... pleasant. I know that I will probably forget about Monday, June 11th within a few weeks; maybe within the next few days... but I thought, with every sucky things that could happen everyday in our life, it's good to remember a good day we have had, and look forward to the next time it comes, rather than dwell and get too upset about the sister who took our new favorite pair of shoes without asking for permission, or that ticketing counter guy who refused to take RM1 worth of coins in exchange for a ringgit note for the silliest of reason, and that new lady in your department at college who doesn't seem to know nuts about how things work around the place and how to keep the students happy.

It's human nature I believe, that people tend to remember the bad things more than the good ones; but I also believe that being positive keeps you grounded. Although admittedly, it's hard to keep your head up and smile with the kind of things life throws in front of you nowadays.

Moving on...

I've successfully made my first lasagna ever! There's a few things to improve on, of course, but it was still quite yummy. My Sayang and his bro Fen took second helpings, so yeay me! There were also praises from Auntie Rosnah, so double yeay! haha.

oooo Azzura is done with her exam. Yeay Zura! Anim has an assignment due this week... are you done with it babe? I've been bumping into Noran twice this week at the train station... I think I'm gonna ask her about keeping to bump into each other on those two days every week, as long as my Summer semester lasts. Chatted with Along and she's as bubbly as ever. There's a glitch in the preparation of Ikin's wedding, but replacement is found. It's not perfect I know babe, but I'm so glad that you pulled through! Lyana is done with the 4th stage of her management training interview with a certain corporation, I REALLY REALLY hope the 5th one will go smoothly as well!

haih. Friends. I know that I don't have that much of them, but the ones I have, I'd like to keep for life.

oooo by the way. Arnie Ruxana has stopped blogging. There goes one source of my entertainment. My days will be hollow and bleak.

haha.

ooo. Chik is back from Australia. Here goes one month of constant teasing. Ooh fun. :P

And haha. I just found out yesterday that Mr. Vijay's parents are my neighbor. I mean, I've always known that his parents are in Serdang, but I never knew that the man who usually walks his BIG AS HECK German Shepherd around my house is his dad! haha. dang it. Just shows how much of an anti-social person I can be sometimes :P

The bed beckons. And so I shall succumb to its call. nyeheheh. Ciao~

the day after

Anniversary dinner went pretty well.

Some of you may have known, I cooked for our day yesterday. It never dawned upon me that I am capable of making a mean apple crumble dessert that is so yum i can't stop eating it. haha. And I made grilled lamb shoulders with kidney beans salad for the entree. Would have made broccoli and cheese soup for the starters as well, but we had to go to my Sayang's cousin's place afterwards so we were a little bit pressed for time.

We'll save the soup for later k babe?

Came back from college like 2 hours ago... I'm still tired. Hmm. Was supposed to have class but I couldn't find Dr. Steven anywhere. And the class was empty too. I assumed that it was canceled, but the lady at the counter doesn't seem to know where he is. So what did I do? Hang out with Jack and Hadi for brunch. Thank goodness my Baby decided to have a few games of bowling at the mall, so at least we could go home together.

While there, I found out that a few changes has been made, but none that would effect my studies, I hope. I only have 2 more semesters to go, so I CAN'T FUCK UP or BE FUCKED. I just couldn't afford it. blergh. And spending 5 days a week in college doesn't sound very appealing now, does it? The closer it is to the end of my degree programme, the more I can't wait for this to be over!

I need to nap. Oh okay... I want to nap. Am going out later to Low Yat, and maybe dinner at Hartamas. For now, it's recharge time.

Toodles everyone. Ciao~

six

It is officially the 6th Annual Day of the Bengots.

Happiness is him.

Happy Anniversary, Baby. I love you, I adore you, I have a need for you. And in turn you annoy me, you tickle me till I squeal, and you make me so geram that I want to do nothing more than gigit you to death.

And yet I can't get enough of you. And I hope you feel the same.

Aiyoh. I'm hopeless.

I posted the lyrics to this song before, but here it is again, because this is my blog, and today is my day with my Sayang.

Santana feat. Michelle Branch and The Wreckers
I'm Feeling You

:
Sometimes I imagine the world without you
But most time I'm just so happy that I ever find you
It's a complicated web
That you weave inside my head
So much pleasure with such pain
How we always always stay the same

chorus
I'm feeling the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the nick of time
I'm riding the highs, I'm digging the lows
Coz at least I feel alive
I've never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good
I'm feeling you

You go and then I can finally breath in
Coz baby I know in the end you're never leaving
Well we rarely ever sane
I drive you crazy and you do the same
But your fire fills my soul
And it warms me up like no one knows

repeat chorus

Oh I'm feeling the way that you cross my mind
And the way that you save me in the nick of time
Oh I'm feeling the way when you walk on by
I feel light, I feel love
I feel butterflies
I feel butterflies
:

wubuwubu~

you're my favorite mistake

A cup of black coffee and a slice of apple pie at 1.30 a.m. is never never never never never ever a good idea. Even for someone who claims that caffeine doesn't quite work to keep her awake. And also for someone who rarely gets sugar high.

Three and a half hours later, and I am nowhere near Dreamland. This will definitely cost me tomorrow.

and the kat waits...

It's been three weeks.

It didn't exactly float and pass me by; nor was it the hardest thing I had to do. But he is on his way home.

I don't know why, but I'm really really anxious.

20 minutes, he said.

:)

dumbfounded

Melinda Doolittle is out of the race? Are you fucking kidding me?!

What has the world came into?

hungry for my sayang. :P

A bout of diarrhoea and vomiting. Fool-proof way to end your weekend, indeed.

My own fault, obviously. I wasn't eating right on Saturday, and in the end it cost me my Sunday. My plan to cat-sit Zoe was halted, but at least I get to spend quality time with Faidhi; currently the most adorable baby on planet Earth, in my book.

My granduncle passed away on Friday evening, and we only found out about it on Saturday morning at 11 a.m. My dad was obviously miffed that no one told him - and any of us, for that matter - earlier. We went to visit my grandauntie and her children at noon at their house in TTDI, and since there are four kids with us, my sister Kak Azfa and I decided to babysit the children at Kak Diana's house while they all went for the tahlil.

Yup, my first time ever babysitting all of them at once. And seriously, taking care of a 9-month-old baby is so so so much easier than watching over a 3-year-old toddler. SERIOUSLY.

Woke up the next morning, and immediately I knew that I was unwell. I felt like shit the whole day [and literally, too] and goodness, I hate the loss-of-appetite feeling. Your stomach is grumbling and you know you're hungry... but you couldn't eat anything because you know you're going to end up throwing everything back out.

I'm still having my diarrhoea, and my appetite hasn't returned. sigh. Have I told you guys that I hate being sick?

But then again, spending time with Faidhi beats almost every horrible things that happened this weekend. He is comel even after puking his dinner out! haih~

I'm off. Zoe needs a little attention.

Ciao~

It's official; I miss my baby

Zuhri, if you happen to stumble upon my blog, Lyana told me about your father. I'm sorry to hear about it, and I know for a fact that you can get through this.

Al-Fatihah.

Here's a hypothetical question: What would you do if a man with whom you are completely in love with tells you that the reason he can't be in a relationship with you is because he doesn't like the way your mind works?

I had a dream last night, where the above-mentioned situation occured. I will not into details of the dream, but what happened was, the girl tried to prove to the guy that she can be what he wants her to be.

I woke up as soon as the dream ended, and I pictured myself being the girl. I immediately thought: Well if you don't like the way that my mind works, you're not worthy of my time then.

Oh well. People do crazy things for love.

Today is the 10th day. 9 more days to go till I get to see my Sayang again. waaa hurry up and let it be 20th May already. I miss you :(

And uhm Zoe pooped beside the TV cabinet when I left her last Wednesday. I don't know what to do about her. Come back and teach her a lesson ok? haha.

Toodles everyone. Not that there's a lot of people reading this blog anyways. But toodles, nonetheless.

Ciao~

When you're dreaming with a broken heart, The waking up is the hardest part

It feels so GOOD to be done with Biology!

Had the final two papers of my exam yesterday, Statistics and Bio back to back. Statistics was okay; had a little crash study group session with Hadi and Dahlia. Me and Hadi decided to just forget about studying Bio since we're not going to remember anything anyways, but it turned out that most of the stuff I read through came out, and so I was kind of hitting myself a little for not reading more of the notes.

But no... no regrets. I'm just happy to be able to answer at least some of the questions. And now, three weeks of cat-sitting!

Zoe decided to be the princess that she is and poop all over the place when she was left alone yesterday. Auntie and Alia came back from Jakarta to the most horrible of smell when they opened up the door, and they saw poop everywhere. Thank goodness the help they hired to come once a week came this morning... or else we would have to clean it up ourselves. blergh. I was pissed at her for a while, but something must have scared the shit out of her [haha] or maybe she panicked. Instead of being all angry, I ended up feeding her.

It's the third day of my "Kusa-less Days and Nights" haha, discounting of course the day he left. I was such a whine when he went away for two weeks to the States last year, so this time I keep on telling myself not to sweat the little things. So what if he doesn't reply my sms on regular basis? Like he ever does! And he calls me at least once a day, so all is good. We don't talk long, only up to 5 minutes max each time. The roaming charges are crazy high! I end up talking so very fast, not allowing a moment of silence to ever get in the way. haha. I want my Baby to call me everyday, yes... but I don't want to kill him with all the bills!

Goodness. How did I go through 2 years of long-distance again?

But it sucks to be on his bed without him to hug... though I really don't mind the extra space. hehe :D

I've been listening to John Mayer over and over again. There's something about his voice that I find captivating. There's this particular song, I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You) that I swear can pass as a make out song, but the lyrics say otherwise. But the music, his voice... sigh. The combination has the power of making the least imaginative of people sway, I believe.

Ooo. Just had a J.Co donut. I ate it while shaking my head, not believing the amount of calories I'm putting inside my mouth, but it's so good I can't put it down. Well. Off I go then. Ciao~

beautiful disaster

Noran is in Bali right now for a company trip. You may not see it, and you can't smell it... but I reek with jealousy. It's been a whole year and 2 months since my trip there with Kusa and his family. I SO WANNA GO AGAIN!

Anyhoot. Assignments are ALL DONE! It feels like a HUGE burden has been lifted off my back when I emailed my lecturer that Bio assignment on this morning. But of course, with three exams next week, especially that back-to-back papers on Thursday, it's hardly time for any celebration.

I should start studying now. But hey, Mira is not Mira when there's no procrastination involved.

But of course that's stupid. I should hate procrastination. Procrastination is eevviiilllll. And to be honest, I don't think I did a lot of procrastinating this semester. Hmm. yeay for me!

Ciao~

all i really want

I've been crazy busy these couple of weeks. Assignments, quizzes, presentations... But all is fine now.

It's funny how I always say that I have loads of things to do towards the end of a semester, and yet I rarely find myself staying up till the wee hours in the morning finishing up something, and I actually have some free time to, say, listen to my brand new mp3 player, courtesy of Ikin. She bought me this during her trip to Tokyo a couple of months back, and dang it, I LOVE IT. This is my golden, Gorgeous beat. I wubb u, Ikin!

And of course, to listen to a cool gadget like that, one needs a cool pair of headphones to go with it. And naturally, the color has to match. Clicky to see my clips, all thanks to Bad!

Don't get me wrong, college is still kinda hectic. I probably would be doing all those sleepless nights stuff if not for the extension my Biology lecturer gave us for our final assignment. And there's also the final quiz for Sales Management this Thursday, Human Resource Management final exam on the next Monday, and Statistics and Biology finals on the following Thursday. And those two papers are back-to-back. I tell ya, that sucks BIG TIME.

And after that? Two weeks of Kusa-less days and nights.

My Sayang will be leaving for Brisbane on the first of May [which falls on my exam week. blergh~] for his Subway training. Yup, my Baby is opening up a Subway franchise. Only after he comes back from his training will he be able to find a location, so watch this space!

What will I be up to? Cat-sitting [if it doesn't scare me hehe] and maybe an outing or ten with Lyana. And I have been neglecting my room these couple of weeks, so yeah... definitely need to do something about that.

Well. This is it, for now. Suddenly I saw the light... to begin doing my Bio assignment. It's not that hard, I suppose. But writing 3,000 words on genetically-manufactured crops is hardly my idea of fun.

Till later, all. Ciao~

happy birthday, Ma.

If my mommy is still around, she would be turning 59 today.

I can't sleep. It's probably due to the fact that I am thinking too much about college; three assignments due by the end of next week, none is done. I'm doing badly in my Sales Management class... I don't want to elaborate now. I'm thinking about Mama too. Nothing bad, nothing sad... I just think too much when I'm supposed to be snoring and sleeping and dreaming and hugging my Sayang.

So what does a girl do? Blog about something worthless! Was tagged by Saddique [twice!], so here it is.

TAG #1: 4 Things You Won't Leave Behind

Okay, so this tag is actually kinda vague. Won't leave behind when I'm going out? Won't leave behind when I wanna go to the toilet [don't make any smartass remark, Diqque... I don't leave my toiletries in the bathroom]? Won't leave behind when I go travel? What? So I decided to answer this tag by assuming that the 4 things are the things I hold on to most dearly in my life. Well, 4 of them, at least.

+ my optimism and sense of humor [because the world is fucked up, and we all could use a little positive thinking once in a while]
+ my Sayang [well I need love!]
+ my friends and family
+ my handbag [which contains my keys, makeup pouch, wallet, handphone, organizer etc. Yes I'm a cheat.]

TAG #2: 6 Weird Things About Yourself

I pondered a while if I want to do this, so I finally decided, "Why the hell not?" Some things here I reveal for the first time, some I made up. haha no la.

+ Ikin knows this; when i eat peanuts, chips, cookies, almost anything accountable, I eat them in even numbers. I don't know why, but this started since I don't remember when. I do not wish to dwell further into this!
+ I sometimes read the ending of a book first before I decide whether to read them from the beginning or not to read at all. No, they don't provide any good clues about the story, but it's practically habit. I don't remember the last time I do that though.
+ I am lousy when it comes to playing games, whatever type it may be. That's why I always tell my Sayang to get me puzzle games on his PSP, DS Lite, etc... they're the only thing I'm good at.
+ I have 6 lesung pipit at the corners of my mouth, 3 on each side. They're not really weird, but I rarely meet people with lesung pipit right at the corner of the mouth, and even more rare is to have 6 of them! By the way, anyone knows what lesung pipit is in English? Help me out!
+ I am not an anti-social, but sometimes the best way for me to chill is to lock myself inside my room, and just hang out alone. Sometimes I read, sometimes I write, sometimes I daydream, mostly I just sleep. haha.
+ I can't take really spicy food, but I LOVE EATING THEM. Tomyam or my dad's sambal tempoyak, for example... I need gallons of water by my side whenever I eat them. I'll drink in between spoonfuls, and my nose will be all runny and red... but I just can't get enough of it.

So. There you go. I'm tagging the Freaks, and my college friends, and anyone who's reading this. Including you, Arnie. And Nana. I'd tag Ikin and my Baby too, but Saddique beat me to it.

Why am I not sleepy yet?!

woohoo?

Nothing makes you smile secretly inside your heart [and head] like when the CEO of a hip and urban television station calls you "Miss Thang". haha.

Miss Padma's Effective Listening class held a seminar themed "From the Textbook to the Real World", that is conducted to help students of what to expect once we start working. I missed the first speaker, which was Dr. Steven Baptist, the hottest lecturer in the whole wide world. haha. I joke. But it really was a pity not to hear his part of the seminar on diversity in the workplace... Everyone who were there told me of how good it was.

Next was a Mr. Charles Kingsley, an Admission person from some other higer learning institution. His speech on ethical issues was presented in a manner that... well, I just couldn't wait for it to be over. Yes, it was a bore. But there were substance in his presentation though... but nothing that I couldn't find on my own.

Ahmad Izham Omar did one on moving up the ladder [corporate, of course]. His was presented in a refreshing view... I really enjoyed his. Well admittedly, he is someone I really admire, ever since the days of Positive Tone, before the buy-over by EMI. And yeah, he called me Miss Thang. I have NO idea why, and he apologized for it afterwards, to which I replied "Oh don't be, I took it as a compliment." haha ohmygod I don't know why... but when I faced him my heart was beating so fast, I SWEAR i was thisclose to becoming a starstruck fan. Of a CEO.

I'm so duh sometimes.

There were 2 other speeches that I had to forgo since I was rushing to get to my Babe's place. And now we're kinda rushing to go out with his mom, and then off to KLIA to pick up his baby sister. She's coming home from a homestay visit in Japan. I reek with envy.

Ok laters ciao hugsandkisses everyone!

the color of the night

I woke up on Thursday morning feeling a lot like shite. Went to the 22 hours clinic near my home the night before as my flu worsened... The doctor gave me THREE different kinds of flu medications to be taken twice daily. My blood pressure was really low as apparently, I did not get enough oxygen.

So yeah... I felt like shit. I just didn't feel like going to college, and for a few moments, I couldn't care less with the fact that I have a prom to go to that night. And yes, it lasted only a few moments... because I immediately realized that I've been looking forward to the prom/dance/ball/etc since the idea was first uttered, so I thought there's no way I'm letting my flu get in the way. If it were to get worse, all I have to do is call my Sayang and ask him to pick me up. So off I went.

And true to my gut feelings, it all went well. Well... in my book, at least. I had a grand time... despite the fact that I was a last-minute replacement model for the fashion show at the beginning of the event. Pairing up with Jack definitely made things a lot easier and yeah... fun. There were also other equally whacky people on the runway... Byron, Hadi, Jon, Hani, Dahlia... and also Chemmy, though I'm not sure if she's crazy as them.

There were other performances too... But insya Allah I'll get to the details later. It's 4 a.m in the morning... I should be getting some sleep. But I managed to upload up to 50 photos from the prom... I'll upload the others soon enough. You guys can check it out here.

But one thing is for sure... at the end of the night, I felt a whole damn better than I did in the morning.

Definitely one of the best nights in my entire college life.

i am a foodie

I love food. Carbs, fats, proteins, everything... I love love love. Be it 5-star hotel dishes that costs my entire month's allowance [Lafite, Shangri-La KL... it's been 4 years but I still think about you], to simple meals at the local warung. One of the places I enjoy going to to get my dose of sup cendawan or mushroom soup is Anjung that is only a few minutes drive from my home.

But truth be told, that place has the crappiest, shittiest service. The waitresses and waiters are slow, and one time, a waitress actually sat at the table with me, Azzura and Noran while taking our order. Like... HELLO?!! But I bear with their lousy service. Why? They serve great Malay food. And their soups... YUM! And what makes it even more bearable, is when I have great friends to eat with me. People like My Boo, Ikin, Azzura, Anim, Noran, Along and Adik. Well I never actually have a meal with Adik, but I'm sure she makes a wonderful company!

And that's why Azzura started the whole creation of Sup Cendawan Anjung and called upon me, Anim, Noran, Along and Adik to be co-authors of the spankin' new blog. But no, the blog is not created for the sake of the restaurant, mind you. It's created for the people and the spirit we all share when we go there. The endless gossip sessions, the unveiling of Anim's engagement... even the dinner me and my Babe were supposed to have with Along, Adik and Noran after we send Azzura off at KLIA. This blog is just another one of our ways to show much we love and value each other, how much each of us complete one another. Yeah... all of that mushy stuff. haha.

Plus, Anjung's sup cendawan is really good.

here we go again

Ugh. Sore throat is killing me. I've been taking lozenges since last night, and it's not doing anything. The fact that I have people smoking around me last night is probably a contributing factor, but no one smoked in my sleep! How come it's still painful?!

Ugh.

My Boo left for the airport at 6 a.m... He's going to Jakarta. Been quite a traveller this year, that Babe of mine... and in May, he'd be gone to Brisbane for a couple of weeks. OoOOooOOOo I wanna come along for the sole reason of meeting Azzura! :(( uwaaaa. Nak usha surfer dudes! Nak makan fish and chips [although the one in KLCC is better, according to Zura]. Nak rimmeeell! NAK AZZURA!!!

Anyways, I did some serious shopping for my ball/prom/dance/charity event/whateverelse yesterday. Bought myself a red hot dress, a cool pair of white wedges, and a small bag to match. And I spent only +- RM130 for all of the items! Talk about a freaking bargain! *lets out a happy sigh* It's good to shop when one have money to spend. Thank you sayang!

The bed beckons. Didn't really get much sleep last night. It was kinda hot.

Sore throat... BE GONE! haha. Gosh I wish it's that easy.

stretch.

I don't know how long I've been in this cybercafe, finishing up on my Sales Management assignment. 3 hours, perhaps? Oh well. The price one has to pay when there's no Internet at home. The computer isn't that bad, but I hate the OpenOffice software program. Why can't the world unite and just use Microsoft Office? My life would be so much easier.

I will be the emcee for my the ball/prom/dance/charity event/I don't what else they call it next week. And amazingly, I volunteered. I'm not feeling nervous at all. Well, the fact that I won't be alone is probably the main reason, but you wouldn't caught me volunteering for something that requires interaction with a large crowd last year. Dr. Steven's Public Speaking class does wonders for my self-believe, I tell ya. Not self-esteem, because I have too much of that already. But I never believed I could actually do it until May last year.

Let's just wait till the 29th, shall we? We'll see if I end up peeing in my... uhm... panties.

Assignments are killing me. Too much of them, but lucky for me, not at once. There's a lot of things to do, that's for sure... but instead of my lecturers dumping everything on me at once, they actually gave my assignments, quizzes and discussions a few at a time, with differing due dates. It's actually much easier this way... I don't have to struggle to finish up 3-4 assignments at once. I still struggle, and it's still crazy... but in a more peaceful kind of way.

But who am I kidding? I basically LIVE to procrastinate!

tagged~

I'm at my bengot of a boyfriend's home, supposedly doing a research for my Biology assignment. Kind of tired right now... I actually slept while my lecturer was talking in front of the class during my Sales Management class this evening... I haven't done that since high school! Reason for tiredness is unknown... but I figure that I'm gonna be a lot more tired come this weekend, with 2 assignments due and a quiz on Monday.

My Sayang tagged me on his blog [which he updated twice in 24 hours! yeay baby!], and so here goes:

I change my handbag depending on what I wear on a particular day, but these are the things that's in my handbag right now:

+ small wallet [cash, IC, college ID, ATM card, receipts and ticket stubs that should be trashed]
+ handphone
+ make-up bag [comprises of Body Shop's two-way powder, Body Shop's lip gloss, Bath and Body Works' lip shine, Revlon lipstick, Lancome blusher, In2It eyebrow definer, Maybelline mascara, L'oreal eyeliner, Clean and Clear facial blotter]
+ Contradiction perfume vial
+ a mirror
+ a lace fan from Belgium
+ house keys
+ a pepper spray [which I hope I don't ever have to use!]
+ an extra hair band and clip
+ Sunnies

And I'm tagging you, dear reader, to list down whatever shit you have in your bag and post it in your blog, if you have any.

Okay gotta go. Mosquitoes are hovering around me right now. I'm off to get myself a shower.

Assignments? Ughh.

bliss.

Happiness comes in the form of 2 kick-ass servings of char kuey teow, Walls' Magnum Classic ice-cream, and that Belgian Chocolate canned drink from Nestle.

Ooh. My Babe updated his blog! After a year and a half! That calls for a celebration! woohoo~

Ciao ;)

i desire the little things

An update is due. But honestly, I don't know what to write about. I should write something, since this is one of the cheapest way of communication between me and Azzura and Animz... although Animz can't post any comment here. Get your own connection soon okay? :)

Now let's see. Where to start? College. Well... things have been a little rollercoaster-ish for me. On one side it's completely hectic, but at the same time things are a little calmer since I'm 2/3 done with my midterm exam. At one point I get super-pumped to finish up my due assignments... But procrastination is the name of my game, and so the later assignments are taking a backseat. Even those that require continuous progress reports fall under this category, I'm afraid.

It'll bite me in the ass, and it'll bite me hard. It's not that I don't care... I just don't care at this moment. There's a difference.

I've been playing a lot of bowling these past few weeks... sometimes twice in a week. I'm getting better at it [I hope!], but so far I've only had 2 strikes. haha. Even first-timer Lyana, a girl from college, plays better than me. My Baby and I were supposed to go tonight, but the traffic was horrible so we had to ditch the idea. Maybe tomorrow.

The Fire Club of ADP Department, SEGi College prom is at the end of the month... and truth be told, I'm rather excited about it. Admittedly, I'm not as involved as I'd like to be, but I'm still excited nevertheless. Lyana is doing a hell of a job at organizing it, Vijay is all boss-like at it [well someone has to be!], and Jack is performing a number with Wendy, Jay and who knows who else.

The main question remains unanswered: What the heck am I going to wear that night?

To Nana: Where the heck is my phone call, woman? You promised me juicy gossips!

Okay. I'm off to looking at possible dresses online. Ciao meow~

one after another. i'm such a wimp

You know that old wives' tale that when you have an ulcer in your mouth, apply a pinch of salt on it, and though it may sting a little, it'll be cured in no time? Do you?

Don't believe it. It stings A LOT, and I could still feel the salt stabbing me under my tongue after 30 minutes. And I'm still not cured!

Oh well.

Stitches are out. Didn't hurt a bit.

I realize that I sometimes share too much in my blog. Well. Sharing IS caring... hehe.

Or is it sharing is scaring? hmm.

Oh how I despise people with new handphones... sigh.

Ok peeps... ciao~

unwise

Operation went fine. Although I was cringing the whole 30 minutes of the surgery. It was no fun at all when the dentist was digging at my gum, trying to get my tooth out. Wasn't painful, but you try have someone digging in your mouth like that. And the drilling... Goodness. My tooth had to be broken down to three parts!

Post op; for the first hour it was hell. Until 5 pm that evening, hell worsened. And slowly after that, the pain subsided. Took me two rounds of painkillers for them to actually work!

And now my right cheek is still swollen [truth be told, I look like Quasimodo], and the pain is still there. Minimized, but still there. Need another check up tomorrow, and the three stitches will only be removed next Tuesday.

Ikin is back! yeay! Azzura and Animz are sorely missed. damn.

Anim where are the pictures?!

Later all. Need to make a few phone calls. Ciao~

absence makes the heart grows fonder

Anim has left. Her flight was at 4:45 p.m. A little sad at the moment. We used to be really close with each other... hanging out every other day whenever she was at her mom's office, and I was at my mom's. She was also studying at MTDC which is located in UPM itself, and she would invite me to the events they had.

We haven't been doing that for some time already now... but I love her all the same. I'll miss you babe... :(

Azzura is leaving tonight, 11:30 p.m flight. haih. Talk about a double whammy. Here's another freak with whom I share everything [well, almost] with. We've shared so much over the years... a year and a half isn't too bad. I think. haih again.

You know I love you, and you definitely know how much I wish you'd be here... :/

A wisdom tooth that grows sideways is murderously painful. But then again, the surgery to remove this killer tooth would cause as much hurt, I suppose. Oh well. 2 more days, and I'll find out.


Till my next post. And at the rate of how often I update my blog, it can take up to two weeks. huhu.

Ciao~

a quarter plus one

I've put up the photos from Sungai Congkak on the Friendster photo album... you guys can check the photo out here. Still no sign of my Bluetooth USB device, so still no photo from Noran's phone-cam.

Most of you would know that I celebrated my 26th birthday on the 29th. I had a few different celebrations... I first kicked it off with a dinner and bowling outing with a few of my closest mates on the eve of my birthday. The plan was to have dinner and then play a few games in Midvalley, but the traffic was too crazy for me and my Sayang, so we decided to make a few last minute changes. Instead of going to Midvalley, we went to Bangsar Village for an early dinner at Nando's, and then we're off to Bangsar Shopping Complex for a couple of games of bowling.

I sucked. Along and Noran, both who played for the first time ever, actually had really high scores. [And Along hasn't stopped bragging since!]

Others who were there during the dinner and bowling thing was Anim, her fiancee Hazril and En. Milo. Zura and Fareen could only stay for dinner coz they're lame. hahaha don't smack me! It was a joke! They made plans, hence their absence. We missed you girls!

The day itself was celebrated with very little fanfare... but of course, with my Boo. He picked me up from college [I had to go to college on my birthday! SUCK!], and we went straight to dinner at Chili's One Utama. Went bowling again afterwards coz Kusa is really serious about picking up bowling again.

I didn't get to meet Ikin on the 29th, so she came to KL the very next day to meet up with me and Fareen for a little Bengot Angels belated birthday dinner. We had a lovely dinner and dessert at Secret Recipe in Alamanda, and I totally splurged, leaving me broke for the rest of the week. haha. But it was my birthday. And I was - and still is - HAPPY! yeay~

Thank you so much for everyone who sent me the lover-ly birthday wishes. Thanks to Azzura for those choc chip cookies [I won't be getting them for the next year and a half! uwaaaa!], and thanks also to my sis Kak Diani for giving me that RM100. w00t! Thank you Fareen for her thoughtfulness in wanting to get me tix for Gamarjobat. And also to everyone who wants to get me presents but hasn't yet... no worries, I don't mind waiting. haha!

And a special shoutout to my Baby for the wonderful birthday present! It was perfect, Sayang! I love love love LOVE YOU!

Photos will be up as soon as I get them from Animz.

Oh well. This is all for now. Azzura is leaving in like a week. Ohmygod.

Ciao all~

freaks on the loose

Zura, moi, Noran, Animz

Where else can you find friends like them?

I have a small circle of friends, that is true. But the few friends I have, fortunately for me, are the people I trust my life with, I cherish unconditionally, I will miss most in their absence. These are three of them.

Aaaaaa. Dah start emo. Will do a proper update on Sg. Chongkak when I have more than 15 minutes to kill. For the moment, read up on what these girls mean to me on Zura's blog here.

Laters all. Ciao~

the melancholy of the youngest sister.

I was talking to Ili online, asking her whether she'd be joining our picnic at Sungai Congkak tomorrow, when I suddenly remember that she knows my 2nd sister Hani without knowing that Hani is my sister. And in between our picnic conversation, I asked her:

mira: you know hani azlan? astro nye publicist tu?
ili: uh. kenal gitu je
mira: she's my elder sis

And this is her response, completely unedited:

ili: ha?
ili: HA?
ili: HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
ili: for real?

haha yup. For real. And why did Ili laugh? I don't really know... but I'm positive it's because of the lack of resemblence we share with each other. My sister Hani took after my mom in the sense that they're both fair-skinned and were often mistaken as Chinese or mixed. But then again, my mother's great-grandfather was from China. My 4th sister Diana and I look a lot more like each other, and we took after my dad, with our brown skin. The distant Arab side, I suppose. I in particular, has the same eyes as my dad's father. Big and round. We called him Tok Guli [Guli means marble in Malay. You know, those round 10 sen-sized glass stuff]. My sisters used to call me David Copperfield. haha. My 1st and 3rd sis, Syisya and Azfa are the melting pot... they look both like my dad and my mother.

It actually makes me proud to think that we're all so different, and that people find it so hard to believe that we're actually sisters. Back when I was in primary school, when Hani was in her upper secondary years, her friends would squeal at how much we don't look like each other. My friends would squeal even harder. When I entered lower secondary, Azfa was in her final year of high school. People don't squeal as much when they compare me with her... We kinda look like each other. Except she had to wear braces. She was, as Hani was before her, sort of one of the popular girls in school.

Everybody wants to ber her pet-sister, or adik angkat. When one of my friends actually told me that she was about to ask my sister to ber her pet-sis, I was actually squeamish. 1; coz I hate that girl. 2; AZFA? As a pet-sis? WHY?? [Now, this is a common practice in an all-girls' school, though I'm not sure about co-ed schools. A junior may usually ask a popular/nice/rebellious/whatever they find attractive senior to be her pet-sister, but it's rare to hear about a senior asking a junior. And this process can be as nerve-wrecking as telling a person you like that you want to be his girlfriend, and vice versa. Seriously.]

I was made aware from earlier on that my sisters were far more prettier than I am during high-school. No one had to tell me [although many did countless of times]; I could figure it out myself. I was darker, bigger. But not once did I feel threatened or upset about it. In fact, I believe from the very start that I am as attractive, maybe not in the same way. Imagine... a sixteen year old who didn't have a problem with her body image. RARE! haha. Its confidence, I guess. And no one in my family ever made a big deal out of it. There were a few jokes of course, but I always always laugh with them. The jokes weren't painful; they were actually made out of love... I can't really explain it. From the beginning, I've always felt it. That love. And even if someone did make hurtful remarks towards me, be it relatives or friends, I've always known that their opinion, in the end, wouldn't matter.

I remember wishing for an elder brother when I was younger. Having 4 older sisters can be, to put it nicely, a nightmare. They take your clothes, make-up, jewelry all the time without asking for permission. And the catfights can be nasty.

But then again, I wouldn't want to trade my 4 sisters for the world.

what have you done today to make you proud?

19 days into the new year.

So what's new so far in 2007? Nothing much. Except that Zura and Animz are both leaving for Oz early next month, and my little circle of friends are getting smaller.

Zura... what am I gonna do without you here? Who else would whine to me about boys? Well ok everyone else will, but they don't do it the same as you do... :(

Animz... why do you have to leave? I don't have any more friends with bright, cheery, yellow Satria. :( Less one person to gossip with...

On a happier note, it's 10 days to my birthday! w00t! eh wait, is that a good news? Or is it bad news? Well I guess we'll find out on the 29th.

Class has officially started this week. Haven't been to any... We, the students of IGS, takes about a week to warm up after a month-long holiday. haha. I'm taking 5 subjects this semester; an extra subject than my usual 4 subject per long semester. I'm not sure how I'll cope though... if things doesn't look good by thursday next week, I'll just drop a subject. The prospect of me even getting a third class honours are not looking so good, but we'll see.

Well. Have a fun Friday and a great weekend everyone. As for me, I'll be going on to a picnic with some of my girls this Saturday, so yeay!

Ciao all~

rants.

The Internet is slow, all thanks to the earthquake that shook Taiwan. Didn't really affect me, although I'm annoyed that I can't check my emails.

So 2007 is here. Wow. Can't believe how time flies. I remember in early January last year I told myself that 2006 hadn't hit me yet. And now it's 2007. I'm not even sure if 2006 had already hit me. Or maybe it'll just come around one day, give me a big slap on the face, and 2007 will hit me. Hmm.

So what happened in the whole of last year? Not much, come to think of it. There are a few things, yeah... but nothing to be blowing the horns about. So many things I could do to improve myself that I didn't do. Don't get me wrong, I'm not being a pessimist. I'm merely realistic.

I had a conversation with my Babe at the start of '07 about improving myself. We were talking about a particular subject that I will not discuss here, but it had me thinking about improvement as a whole. As a person. Physical, emotional, spiritual. 25 years, and I've been slacking off. I haven't done half the things most people my age have done. But I have been fortunate to do things most people doesn't even get the chance to do. I will not question whether it was enough or not. I will not regret. But it makes me think. The term 'everything happens for a reason' does not apply here, because I haven't tried hard enough. So if there's a reason why I have yet to achieve the things others have achieved is purely because I slacked off. Not just last year, mind you... this goes WAY back.

But no, this is not about making new year's resolution. I've never made one in my whole life. I don't need a day to make resolutions... I make resolutions everyday in my life. Mainly about my weight issues, and relationship-wise, and regarding my studies. What I mean is... Why wait till January 1st to make resolutions?

But that's a whole different post altogether.

I'm looking forward to a lot of things this year, I have to admit. Only a year to go before I graduate; an internship programme that I hope will land me straight to a permanent job once I'm done with my studies; another year of being bullied by my Boo; and my TOEFL hopefully in July. haha yeah... I'm excited about doing TOEFL. I've no freaking idea why.

Which reminds me. Last semester's results are out. I did well, I believe... but well enough to get all A's? I really don't know. And it's freaking me out.

Oh well. I need some teh o ais.

Ciao all~