Tuesday, September 27, 2005

kacang eater

i want my bed. i'm so fucking sleepy, that i don't know how i'm supposed to be paying attention in my ethics class later at 5 pm.

what i should be doing is, go home, head straight to my room, and get into a deep slumber on my bed. but damn my conscience... i couldn't!

instead i'm in the computer lab, eating kacang while chatting with azzura and my beloved sayang.

oh, the joy.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

STOMPing madness~

got back from watching STOMP a couple of hours ago; i have to say, it was fucking good. the perfomers themselves were wonderful at making the show interactive, and the beats of the dustbins, the sweeping sound of the brooms, the thumping of the folded metal chairs, even the flicker of their fingertips on the matchboxes kept me enthralled for a good hour and 45 minutes or so. in Kusa's word, it was "intense". and ikin's prediction came true... Kusa and Chik did start knocking and banging stuff the minute we get into the car to get home.

if money grow on trees i'd get tickets to see their last show tonight.

it's my dad's birthday today... me and kusa are off to see my sisters, their significant others and my dad [duh!] later at the mines. we're having a birthday dinner at johnny's, the steamboat restaurant. my dad is 63 today... though he looks his age, he has a lot of energy compared to his peers.

anybody knows the steamboat restaurant in brickfields, opposite the police station? the location is horrible; right next to the main road! - but they have the best steamboat i've tasted so far. and the first steamboat i tasted too. before johnny's, i never went anywhere else for steamboats. restoran bunga raya, i think. the place has a lot of sentimental value to me... though the last time i went there i was still in high school. so i don't know if the food is as good now as it was years ago, but i'm hoping on it... it'll be cool to go there again one of these days. though parking can be murder.

i'm off. gonna play lumines for a while, and grap a lil nap before heading to seri kembangan. to those who didn't have the time/money to catch STOMP, sorry for rubbing it in your face. or maybe NOT.

kidding only... don't la marah. hehe :D

get STOMPed!

15 more hours to STOMP! ^_^ can't wait!

Thursday, September 22, 2005


me and my movies classmates and our lecturer went to the preview screening of a malaysian movie called 'Salon' yesterday at One Utama. it wasn't the worse movie i've seen, but maybe it was me... i failed to see if there was any morale from the story. worse still, i gotta make a review of the movie as my second assignment.

i'll post it up here when i'm done with it, probably in three weeks time. and then you guys will see what i mean.

iwas bummed for a few days until last night as i was sure that i won't be able to watch STOMP which will end it's run this sunday. according to fareen the cheapest tickets for the sunday shows and the saturday night are all sold out, and there were only a couple left for the friday night show, which she will be going to. when my beloved booboo called me up at around 8.30 pm to tell me that his mom got us the tickets for us and his bro for the sunday matinee show, i was ecstatic! i don't know about the seating arrangement, i'm just SOOOO happy to be able to go! yippie yeay-yeay! all thanks to auntie for making this possible, of course.

JD fortune was chosen to be the lead singer for INXS. i'm happy, probably not for the right reason. yes, he'd make a wonderful lead singer, and he's a true rockstar. but as i said in my earlier post, i want Marty to be with his own band, doing his own stuff... I was never a true blue INXS fan, but hell, i'm the epitome of a Marty groupie.

i think.

i'm forgetting something. i'll edit this post later when i do remember it.


Wednesday, September 14, 2005


a wonderful song by Radiohead that gets to me every time i hear it.

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

*But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

*But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
When I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She runs, runs, runs, runs...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

I thought it was fated that on the very morning i hummed to the song, marty casey was singing it on rockstar INXS. haha. maybe not. but what else could be a better start of the day than having your favorite rockstar sing your all-time favorite song?

well, waking up besides mr kusa hafiez with him hugging me real tight is a sure winner, but hey, that's totally out of the topic.

the same song makes me feel real old. i remember being a 14 year old finding myself when i heard the song for the first time on this compilation album 'pop is dead' owned by my sister, azfa. i owe it to her for introducing me to as what they call it 10 years ago, grunge. when kids my age were busy choosing their favorite "take that" members, i would sit at the back of my class, my walkman playing the cassette constantly, rewinding creep so very often i was surprised the cassette did not falter. [i did have my fave "take that" member; i hit myself countless times for not choosing robbie williams. he is sooo much hotter now.] i remember too, the first time i heard 'creep', i was in the UPM school bus wearing my baju kurung sekolah. see what i mean by the song making me feel old?

10 years ago i was stupid, naive, and my friend turned out to be a bitch. 'creep' was one of the very few things i did or chose wisely back then.

now? i've grown up, still looking for what i am exactly all about, no longer stupid or naive, my good friends are wonderful, my boyfriend is the one i want to spend my whole freaking life with, i still make bad choices though i've become wiser about them, and marty sang 'creep' to me this morning, providing me with a great start to an otherwise mediocre day.


Saturday, September 10, 2005

i'm convinced.

it'll be you and me
up in the trees
and the forest will give us the answer
it'll be you and i
up in the sky
it's a combination for disaster

marty casey said that his song "trees" is about a man trying to convince a gurl to stay in a relationship, and all i can say is, if it was me... i'm convinced many times over.

Jordis is out of the game. it's a sad news when i heard it, but the guys of INXS are probably right... she ain't right for the band. i want Marty or MiG to win so very badly, but then again... will i actually enjoy their stuff in INXS as much as i enjoy their performances now? is it possible for them to win without being the new frontman of INXS?

who knows?

i hate being sick. i especially hate the transition of first having a sore throat, then the flu, and finally the agonizing, chesty dry cough. and the cough lasts for a week or two. and yes, very painful. and for the first few days, expect a bit of throwing up. but then again, kusa has been such an angel to me since the day i told him that i was getting sick. it's the only perk of being unwell, but it's a perk i enjoy tremendously.

i've lost my appetite for the past couple of days. it's good news in a way, but i dislike being hungry with a growling tummy, and yet i can't bring myself to finish one hard-boiled egg. i struggled with dinner just now, and i know i'm still hungry... but i couldn't eat anymore. sigh.

sorry fareen, noran, animz, weird for not being able to make it for the reunion. it's been a shitty week and i do not expect tomorrow to be better. have fun k?

oh well. off to dreamland. ciao~

Monday, September 05, 2005

a couple of smokes, a cup of coffee, and a lil bit of conversation

i'm bored. i have another 30 minutes or so till my class starts, but i wish it would start now so we can just get it over with for the day, and yeah, kill my boredom. it's insane to have your first class of the week on monday, at 5.30 pm... i should be at home tickling dina till she shrieks with laughter. or watch tv. or go to the mines and buy a new bag. but then again, my class... and also, i don't have any money for that new bag yet. sigh~

my weekend was good, how was yours? had a bit of a gurly coffee session with ikin and fareen at starbucks midvalley on friday eve. it was nice to sit and gossip and bitch about people that we don't like... haha. spent my saturday evening with ikin the the groper and alia the... uhh, baby sis. we went to sg wang and ikin the molester got this really cute and quite cheap bolero at this store we dubbed 'kedai mira'. coz i used to buy most of my cardis there. there's this one bolero that i really want... prolly have to wait till the end of next month to buy it... i need to get my new bag first.

iklan: just saw joshua and leo, my 2 friends in college did their ritual handshake. it was... cute! haha.

anyways, back to my weekend. i spent most of it with kusa just hanging out and lazying around. i realize that i take a lot of his free time... he got pissed at one point, and i probably deserve it. but then again, i grab chances by the testicles. he's free, so i wanna hang with him. until he's not free. then i don't hang with him. i don't hang at all.

ikin was a nervous wreck in the last few hours before sunday came. and what's up on sunday? she's meeting bad [the name, not the antonym for good] for the the first time since 14 months ago. and me, kusa, fareen and zaf get to see him too on sunday, as zaf took us out for dinner at fatty crab in pj. the food was wonderful! and the company was even better. kinda sorry that i didn't spend much time talking to bad... i was too preoccupied with my food... haha. but next time, maybe :) and by the way, THANK YOU again zaf for last night! maybe we can do it again sometime soon... nyeheheh~

suffian flew off to phuket yesterday doing a review of club med for fhm. have fun, suff, and have a safe return on... uhh... when are you coming back? hmmz. just be well.

ohh... kusa is on the phone. later!


Thursday, September 01, 2005

did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

happy belated birthday, Malaysia! huhu. i am not at all patriotic, but admittedly, i understand better of what it means to be independent after reading NST's special issue of merdeka day yesterday. it was a compilation of news clippings that started with the japanese invasion of Malaya, until the Indonesian's... well, invasion. sorta like reading your history secondary textbook, only in much simpler, more interesting form. hmmz.

marty casey is the most delicious man on rockstar INXS. along with mig ayesa, of course. his rendition of pink floyd's i wish you were here was wonderful... sorta made me wanna cry. sorta. oh well. and that look on his face... gawd. can i just have one opportunity to lick him? not that i actually would... but if i can do that, that means i can see him, and possibly listen to him sing. sigh~

classes have started regularly this week. had my interviewing class just now... i'm off to lunch with jack in a while and then to my chemistry class at 2. talking about classes... i wonder where's ikin now, and what's up with her lim kok wing application. hope everything goes well for her.

lapar sangat dah ni. and because of a certain person's relentless teasing about a particular akademi fantasia winner and the ending of each of my post, i will cease my usage of the word 'world', and just say whatever comes to mind. if this still doesn't stop the teases, then maybe a few hardcore pinches will.