Monday, June 25, 2007

near my breaking point, but not quite there.

Seriously, I have zero tolerance against stupid, ignorant people who refuse to use their brain. I'm not talking about silly kind of stupid, which I actually find endearing [Ikin knows what I'm talking about coz I say bodoh to her everytime she makes those remarks she is known for], but real, pure, I-can't-believe-he/she-just-did/say-that kind of stupid. Other people may just shut up and take it in, but not me. Not if I can help it.

I don't mean the above statement as a hate statement to people that I dislike, not necessarily. Even those you love can be really dumb sometimes.

Moving on.

I SWEAR college is trying to kill me. People are complaining that they don't get to see me either face to face or online for the past 2 weeks. Really... I'm not avoiding anyone. I have classes every weekday, either half-day or full, and by the time I get back, I'm too beat to even think of going out, and sometimes to even call anyone. Well, there's also the factor of my mobile number being barred as I have yet to reload my credit. Sorry sorry sorry.

I have my mid-term exam starting tomorrow. First paper will be Consumer Behavior, followed by Human Motivation on Saturday. I know. I can't even imagine going to college on a weekend, let alone have an exam!

oooo but first, Transformers on Friday. oh yeah.

Adieu, for now.

Friday, June 22, 2007

a different kind of anniversary

2 years today.


That night plays in my head every once in a while, but a lot less compared to a year ago. I still get emotional thinking about the daughter I have been versus the daughter I should have been, but it is easier to tell myself that there's no point of having regrets now.

I worry sometimes that I would forget things about her as I get older, but somehow I know that I won't. It's still scary though, because I find myself thinking less about her lately, unlike a few months back where I would actually daze off and thoughts of her would just burst into my head.

Oh well.

I should get some sleep. been having a very irregular sleeping pattern since last week.

And if I'm lucky, maybe I'll dream about my Mama.

Till later... Ciao meow~

Thursday, June 14, 2007

lips on fire

ooooo~ 2 weeks without any updates. Anyone miss me yet? Okay don't answer that.

... Well it's not like anyone was going to anyways kan?

So what is going on in my world? Class has started since 3 weeks ago, but I've only been to every single one of my classes only this week. I'm taking 3 subjects, and God willing I'll do fine. They seem to be interesting in their own way, either by the nature of the subject itself, or the nature of the lecturer teaching the subject. But seriously, going to college from Monday to Friday, 5 days a week... it drains me mentally most of the time.

Just thought I'd share with you:
Last Monday was an extremely good day for me. Nothing super happened... it was just a good day. At every time I took the public transport, whether the bus or the train from home to college or vice versa, it did not take me more than 2 minutes to wait for my ride. And everything else that happened during the day seemed to be very... pleasant. I know that I will probably forget about Monday, June 11th within a few weeks; maybe within the next few days... but I thought, with every sucky things that could happen everyday in our life, it's good to remember a good day we have had, and look forward to the next time it comes, rather than dwell and get too upset about the sister who took our new favorite pair of shoes without asking for permission, or that ticketing counter guy who refused to take RM1 worth of coins in exchange for a ringgit note for the silliest of reason, and that new lady in your department at college who doesn't seem to know nuts about how things work around the place and how to keep the students happy.

It's human nature I believe, that people tend to remember the bad things more than the good ones; but I also believe that being positive keeps you grounded. Although admittedly, it's hard to keep your head up and smile with the kind of things life throws in front of you nowadays.

Moving on...

I've successfully made my first lasagna ever! There's a few things to improve on, of course, but it was still quite yummy. My Sayang and his bro Fen took second helpings, so yeay me! There were also praises from Auntie Rosnah, so double yeay! haha.

oooo Azzura is done with her exam. Yeay Zura! Anim has an assignment due this week... are you done with it babe? I've been bumping into Noran twice this week at the train station... I think I'm gonna ask her about keeping to bump into each other on those two days every week, as long as my Summer semester lasts. Chatted with Along and she's as bubbly as ever. There's a glitch in the preparation of Ikin's wedding, but replacement is found. It's not perfect I know babe, but I'm so glad that you pulled through! Lyana is done with the 4th stage of her management training interview with a certain corporation, I REALLY REALLY hope the 5th one will go smoothly as well!

haih. Friends. I know that I don't have that much of them, but the ones I have, I'd like to keep for life.

oooo by the way. Arnie Ruxana has stopped blogging. There goes one source of my entertainment. My days will be hollow and bleak.


ooo. Chik is back from Australia. Here goes one month of constant teasing. Ooh fun. :P

And haha. I just found out yesterday that Mr. Vijay's parents are my neighbor. I mean, I've always known that his parents are in Serdang, but I never knew that the man who usually walks his BIG AS HECK German Shepherd around my house is his dad! haha. dang it. Just shows how much of an anti-social person I can be sometimes :P

The bed beckons. And so I shall succumb to its call. nyeheheh. Ciao~

Friday, June 01, 2007

the day after

Anniversary dinner went pretty well.

Some of you may have known, I cooked for our day yesterday. It never dawned upon me that I am capable of making a mean apple crumble dessert that is so yum i can't stop eating it. haha. And I made grilled lamb shoulders with kidney beans salad for the entree. Would have made broccoli and cheese soup for the starters as well, but we had to go to my Sayang's cousin's place afterwards so we were a little bit pressed for time.

We'll save the soup for later k babe?

Came back from college like 2 hours ago... I'm still tired. Hmm. Was supposed to have class but I couldn't find Dr. Steven anywhere. And the class was empty too. I assumed that it was canceled, but the lady at the counter doesn't seem to know where he is. So what did I do? Hang out with Jack and Hadi for brunch. Thank goodness my Baby decided to have a few games of bowling at the mall, so at least we could go home together.

While there, I found out that a few changes has been made, but none that would effect my studies, I hope. I only have 2 more semesters to go, so I CAN'T FUCK UP or BE FUCKED. I just couldn't afford it. blergh. And spending 5 days a week in college doesn't sound very appealing now, does it? The closer it is to the end of my degree programme, the more I can't wait for this to be over!

I need to nap. Oh okay... I want to nap. Am going out later to Low Yat, and maybe dinner at Hartamas. For now, it's recharge time.

Toodles everyone. Ciao~