duit merah.

Hello people~

It's been a while since my last post. My new job with the Islamic finance events/publishing company is terribly hectic, I can only spare a few quick messages through Gtalk to keep me in touch with Ikin or Azzura and whoever was online. I don't check my blog, my facebook, and my other emails other than Gmail.

It's hard to say if I love my job. I do like it coz it involves writing word play. But sitting in front of the pc for a minimum of 7 hours everyday, and doing the same thing for the whole time... it gets really mundane. Especially when you don't really know what some of the terms mean. For instance, subprime mortgage. What the...?

But I LOVE the environment. The office is not that big, but it does seat around 20 people comfortably. There's a proper feel of an office attached to it... I have a table with ample space, my own telephone, and I've received my first pay although I've been at the place for only one week. We have our own pantry and, and today - well this is lame, but still exciting - I get my own stationaries; pens, ruler, stapler, the whole works. I even have my own access card! COOL!

haha.

But of course, there's also a bit of a office 'he says, she says'. Basically some people don't like some other people. and the other people feels the same way towards the first group of people. It's not too much that I can't handle, but being a person who tries not to get involved [though I'm sure at one time I'll probably will], I hope they will just sort out their differences.

But then again, you can't really escape these things no matter where you work. If it's not one thing, it's another, right? And this isn't too bad... It's still normal. Nothing too bad.

Dang it. Why am I talking about my jon when I should be relaxing for the weekend anyways? [Yeah, like I'll relax... there's still the wedding planning and the damned internship report! blergh!]

Alia made cupcakes today. Well, she prepared the cupcakes in advance and we did the icing together a few hours ago. It's so obvious we're newbies at it, but I don't think it turned out too bad.

Oh goodness. I'm tired. Maybe I shouldn't have started talking about my job first. Sigh.

Oh well. Till the next time [most probably next weekend]... Ciao~

staying strong is hard to do.

It was easy for me to vent out my anger and frustration. About my job, about the wedding, and till last year about college.

An on-going correspondence with a friend through facebook kind of set my feet on the ground again. I am not saying that what I'm going through is easy, or to say "ohmygod I have it soooo good, I shouldn't be fretting!" We all have different priorities in life, although some are more serious than others. And as time go by, as we get older, and things evolve around us, our priorities will shift. Mine are important for me, as it is to each and everyone of us.

But when I whine and vent, and thinking that my life sucks, I somehow pushed the thought that there are other bigger things in life, that other people need to let it out and cry as well. And yes, I am still venting, but I need to listen to others too, especially when it is as serious as what my friend is going through.

Her situation is tough. I empathize with her with a few of the issues she is going through, though on a few others... I can only imagine how she manage.

My prayers go out to you, Sha, and I have faith that you will persevere amidst all the madness.

shortie

Nothing too long this time, just a short one to give you guys an update on what has been happening.

Got myself a new job as an Editorial Executive in a company specializes in Islamic finance news, training and events. I'll start work at the end of the month. I know my employer isn't too happy about me leaving, but the choices I make are for my future, and mainly for my sanity. I deserve a job that pays, and they deserve an employee who doesn't diss them.

I was kind of freaking out at the thought that I probably won't be getting the job... the first interview with the Editor was fine, but the second one with one of the company's Managing Director was unnerving! But Alhamdullilah, the Editor must've put in a good word for me; seriously if I could, I would have danced when I got the news haha.

So wish me luck at my new workplace! woohoo!

It's not right, but it's OK

It's not easy to plan for a wedding, look for a new job, and working full-time all at once. Come the end of March, things will be a lot more hectic when I start doing my internship report. There were tears, screams and fights along the way, and admittedly I went through two days of mentally giving up on everything, but despite it all I am feeling very optimistic right now.

There has been a few callbacks and more interviews are expected, but I do hope that the callback I'm going for tomorrow will result positively, and I can then stop my search and concentrate on finishing my tasks at Fusionmind. But until it's finalized, I'm going to resist indulging too much information, and just take it as it comes.

I've decided to take full-charge of the wedding planning [although I haven't really spoken to my dad about it, don't know how he's going to feel about it]. I have a much clearer vision of my reception right now, and I am loving the image that has been conjuring up in my head. I don't know how to really explain this feeling; I'm nervous as feck, and yeah I do get too stressed about some details, but I'm actually feeling very, very good.

By the way, Ikin and freaks... the realization that I AM GETTING MARRIED IN FOUR MONTHS is slowly, but finally, hitting me.

I think I'm hyperventilating.

whee~

Most [if not all] would know by now that I am looking for a new job, and that I've tendered my resignation at my current workplace, so I'll be leaving at the end of this month. I don't wish to go into details on why, but suffice to say, they can't provide me with what I want, and I don't feel its necessary for me to contribute to the company anymore. My boss took it like a man, and he responded in a very gentleman-like way.

I find it a pity to leave the job [coz I do love it], but pity alone doesn't roll money into my bank account now, does it?

Been called for two interviews last week, and one for tomorrow. Sent out numerous resumes through different channels, and I'm hoping that I'll hit the jackpot soon. But of course, I'll be sending many more... so if you know any company that's hiring, do let me know yea?

Wedding plans are going pretty well, but am stalling a little bit with all the employment thing going on. Need to finalize at least a few things by the end of the month, and of course I'm hitting a few bumps, but generally am not freaking out yet [should I be worried for not being worried? hmm]. I'm particularly glad with my decision to not have the solemnization and reception at my home, as My Sayang's reception has been pushed to the next day at noon instead of evening. So yeay me! We're going to be dead tired as it is, and I'm just thankful that we get to minimize any fatigue haha.

Had a weird dream last night, about how on my wedding day, everything was not properly planned. Freaked me out a little bit, but then I actually woke up wanting to laugh out loud rather than going "oh no it's going to be a disaster!" I remember someone told me that, if you want your dream to come true [if it's a good dream of course], don't talk about it for 2 weeks. If you talk about it before the 2 weeks period ends, then the dream won't come true. Why 2 weeks, who knows. But I'm not taking any chances.

So there you go. An update. Till later!