Tuesday, June 20, 2006

one year today

... well, not much to say about it, really.

it's been a year since my mom passed away.

well, that's it... i guess. what else is there to say? how i feel? what my views are? how do i cope? is everything good and dandy?

what do you think? i mean, really. what you think i feel, is probably what i am feeling. there's a whole load of stuff going inside my head, and i don't know how to express it with words.

sigh.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Well, theres always your amalan that you can sedekah to your moms roh. Simple things really. As simple as baca Bismillah before eating or doing something. And also sedekah Al-Fatihah at any point you're reminded of her. It's the little things.

"But what about me? How do I deal?" you might ask? Well, I guess you just have to accept the fact(which im sure you have) your mom is gone and move on. Doing the above'll make you be rest assured that insyallah God'll give blessings to her roh.

Elmira said...

thanks for your comment :) moving on was something i have done on the day she passed away. but of course, every now and then, there's a feeling of "i could have been a better daughter".. that sort of thing. i know the fact that it's all been said and done, and i know that i'm not as bad of a daughter i may think i am, but i can't help but wonder sometimes. can you? can anyone?

but no worries... i'm all fine. life is treating me good, and i have people around me to ensure that i'm loved :)

thanks again. by the way, do i know you?